with my mind at a standstill,
my legs keep me moving along.
in an economic digression and depression,
i realize how little i need to get by.
but my dwindling bank account
and financial obligations make me worry
if i can afford the warm meal at night, alone.
i just want to cuddle in my big warm blanket
and hibernate until the cold subsides.

there is no more time (or money) for lazy daze.

i spent my thanksgiving day.
thinking about what you said last night.
i spent my thanksgiving day.
excusing myself from the room to cry over a cigarette.
i spent my thanksgiving day.
revaluating the time now lost, trying to enjoy the next moment.



"im so blessed to
have spent that time with my family and the friends i love
with my short life i have met so many people i deeply care for"

-yeasayer, red cave.

we expected something,
something better than before.
we expected something more

do you really think you can just put it in a safe
behind a painting, lock it up and leave?
do you really think you can just put it in a safe
behind a painting, lock it up and leav?e

walk away now and you're gonna start a war

whatever went away
i'll get it over now.
i'll get money,
i'll get funny again.

whatever went away
I'll get it over now.
I'll get money,
I'll get funny again

walk away now and you're gonna start a war

we expected something,
something better than before.
we expected something more

you were always weird
but I never had to hold you by the edges
like I do now

you were always weird
but I never had to hold you by the edges
like I do now

walk away now and you're gonna start a war

whatever went away
i'll get it over now.
i'll get money,
i'll get funny again

whatever went away
i'll get it over now.
i'll get money,
i'll get funny again

walk away now and you're gonna start a war
walk away now and you're gonna start a war

too close to home.

Monday, Nov 24th, 2008 -- It's not difficult to sense that something is different now, but it's hard to put your finger on the source. Fortunately, the passionate Scorpio Moon enables you to feel your way through the emotional darkness. Remember, there's no reason to be afraid of the shadows; you can find your answers in the strangest places.

Tuesday, Nov 25th, 2008 -- Your compassion can be one of your greatest strengths, yet now it can also be the source of anxiety. Your ability to empathize with everyone is a blessing unless you cannot establish healthy boundaries and turn it off when appropriate. Even if your intentions are good, feeling the pain of others isn't necessarily the only way to respond to difficult news. Do what you can to remain positive and move on. Letting go can be liberating to all involved.

Wednesday, Nov 26th, 2008 -- People more powerful than any you've known will enter your life over the next decade, forcing you to reassess your priorities. This may take a while to notice, but it can begin as you get involved with new social groups or organizations. Not surprisingly, as your friends change, so will your world. Even if you cannot yet fathom what's ahead, just remember to voluntarily let go of the past when it's time. Struggling to hold on to the wrong things can exhaust you when you need your energy for something more important.

friends.giving - the weekend before the last thursday of november.

castro house thanksgiving. // (moistest turkey in town).



mayo. e. dave. zorina. cole. greg. eric. (clayton). allie. lauren. lindsay. alai. louise. by jose.





holy shit. dinner for thirty-how-many? //
(bartholomew the turkey and mac + cheese)



ariel. daveo. cole. drew. colin. jess. annie. trevor. ryan. lee. lawrence. sally. shaun. houck. jenn. tanya. fei. chris. dave. mich. james. james. berkman. lysette. brent. donnie. felix. luca. ricky. james. (aki. andrew. greta. benji. jenna. paul. chris). by e.



this year's contributions: bacon/walnut spinach salad w/dijon lemon home dressing, slow cooked pulled chicken and green beens, baked cheddar mac and cheese w/ butter-goldfish topping, tofu and beef lumpias, bartholomew the turkey.